Caught my "resting me face" while getting ready for a call. Oops. It's been about three weeks since I received my autism diagnosis and I've been trying to figure out how and why I feel different about myself. Because I do feel very different, and it's mostly really great. Aside from everything else, it's a … Continue reading A Different Kind of Imposter Syndrome
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Re-examining My Suicide Through an Autism Lens
Oh, where to begin with the content/trigger warnings? Seriously, just an open, graphic recounting and examination of some pretty rough stuff ahead. The title should imply it all: talk of suicide, psychological issues, hospitalization... You can't read this sort of thing without having some feelings about it, so feel free to walk away now. Still … Continue reading Re-examining My Suicide Through an Autism Lens
Lost Girls Represent
In my research on neurodivergence, I've focused quite a bit on its presentation in girls/cis-women/XX/AFAB, because that's what I was and am, even I haven't experienced textbook gender roles. The term "The Lost Girls" keeps popping up, referring to girls born before experts started studying or identifying them as being on the spectrum. Even though … Continue reading Lost Girls Represent
Masking & Anxiety & Living That Pandemic Life
I have 16 drafts in here waiting to be written or finished. When I first set up the blog, I opened the drafts--some only as titles and some with a bunch of notes--because I have so much to research and examine and make sense of, and I make sense of things mostly by writing about … Continue reading Masking & Anxiety & Living That Pandemic Life
Businessing
Last Friday I had to go in to the office, which was a little weird, since I've been working from home since March--it's a COVID safety measure to reduce the number of people in the building, and I am A-OK with it. This trip to the office was for a meeting with a printer rep … Continue reading Businessing
A Bit of Limbo: Between Self-Assessment and Professional Diagnosis
It's been about a month and a half since I took my first neurodiversity quiz and began researching autism, particularly in women. In one sense, I'm very comfortable with the "autism" label, like if a professional told me I am autistic with a side of OCD, I wouldn't be upset. But at the same time, … Continue reading A Bit of Limbo: Between Self-Assessment and Professional Diagnosis
Delightfully Quirky 