It’s been about three weeks since I received my autism diagnosis and I’ve been trying to figure out how and why I feel different about myself. Because I do feel very different, and it’s mostly really great. Aside from everything else, it’s a very long project I’ve completed, from entertaining the idea that I might … Continue reading A Different Kind of Imposter Syndrome →
If you’ve been following along with the Baby Steps series (or longer than that), you can maybe imagine the buildup to my results appointment. It took about four weeks following my in-person testing — I was expecting three weeks, so that extra week was painful and I did end up sending a check-in email in … Continue reading Baby Steps to Diagnosis: Part 4 (The Diagnosis) →
Following my intake interview, I had some homework to complete before the in-person testing. These were the four questionnaires I was assigned: An online quiz made up of maybe 400 true/false statements. This was the most difficult, since so many of them were judgments or used vague wording or wording so absolute that I wasn’t … Continue reading Baby Steps to Diagnosis: Part 3 →
“I’m seeing a lot of anxiety here.” Yeah, that’s how you want to start an assessment. But it was true. After close to a year putting these pieces together for myself, it was finally time to present them to an authority on the subject in the hope of validation, which could then lead to some … Continue reading Baby Steps to Diagnosis: Part 2 →
These are all rolling a little late, since it’s been tough to write and edit and publish. Big happenings on the diagnosis front, along with the rest of life, so finding moments of calm has been a bit tricky. I have an appointment for my autism assessment! Two, actually, with a third one TBD. It … Continue reading Baby Steps to Diagnosis: Part 1 →
You know when your struggles seem so unique and ridiculous and they make you see yourself as an alien? Well, I found the place where all the aliens hang out and it’s pretty okay. I belong to a lot of Facebook groups, some for music, which I’d been invited to, and many for animal rights … Continue reading Community: Online Autistic Pals →
I’ve been building my spectrummy book collection, looking for some in-depth self-portraits from actually autistic people. The first two are both by autistic moms who were diagnosed as adults. I was worried about overlap at first, but as I devoured both of these books within a week, their experiences and styles support the adage: If … Continue reading Autism Book Shelf: Autism in Heels, and Nerdy, Shy, and Socially Inappropriate →
Let me begin by acknowledging the fact that I let myself become a cautionary tale. You can keep your judgment to yourself–I’ve got this one. The last time I went to the dentist, I was having a cavity filled and the Novocaine had worn off or wasn’t enough, so I felt everything and they wouldn’t … Continue reading I Went to the Dentist & Now I Need a Nap →
A lot of what I read about autism and relationships focuses on friendship: the lack of friends, the difficulty in making or keeping friends. I’d thought about it previously, but now it feels like something I should dig into… I have friends. And I think I’m a good friend–I try to be. I am a … Continue reading On Friendship →
In the first episode of Everything’s Gonna Be Okay, Matilda is asked for a hug by her half-brother and explains that she doesn’t like hugs. They’d made her dad happy so she learned to do them, but since he died she hoped she wouldn’t have to do them anymore. (Her substitution idea was to dance … Continue reading Ugh, Hugs →
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